Imagine immortality, where even a marriage of fifty years would feel like a one-night stand. Imagine seeing trends and fashions blur past you. Imagine the world more crowded and desperate every century. Imagine changing religions, homes, diets, careers, until none of them have any real value.Imagine traveling the world until you're bored with every square inch. Imagine your emotions, your loves and hates and rivalries and victories, played out again and again until life is nothing more than a melo-dramatic soap opera. Until you regard the birth and death of other people with no more emotion than the wilted cut flowers you throw away.

- Chuck Palahniuk Lullaby p.228

Whoa, later all.

Get observed tomorrow, have no idea what's going to happen. Have some ideas to finish this quarter, but after Spring Break am lost for ideas. Been told I shouldn't give homework, and need to be more concerned with making it fun. Something with music maybe, have a cool idea for an assignment for over spring break. I want them to do something new everyday, something that they've never done before. Then I want them to find a song that personifies that day and make a soundtrack of their week. It should be cool and fun right. Thinking about doing some creative writing, and reading a play in class. Those are my big ideas, I think that would be fun and cool. Next Friday I plan on haveing a day where the students can just ask me questions. Next Tuesday I'd like another day where they have a chance to evaluate me, block day should be a movie, then Friday they ask the questions.

Am applying for jobs. Looking okay, but Peace Corps would be really cool. Scares the hell out of me, but I think it'd be worth it.

Keep your fingers crossed.
Give me guidance.
Later all.

Read an awesome book, The Life of Pi it was awesome. My kids are turning in fantastic projects that I'm off the wall about. One girl explained a novel using a mathematical equation, tons of cool posters, and a movie that just about sent my jaw through the floor. Watchmen comes out, plan on seeing it this weekend at some point. Going to the school play sometime this weekend. Lots of nothing, tons of everything. Been needing to explain to a parent that her kids a slap-dick, without using so many words. I cant help it if he decides to jack around while the rest of the class is working. I don't know. Once again, it hasn't been what I've been teaching, but how. Unclear directions mostly, poor positive reinforcement, some lax in classroom management. Not what, but how. Been struggling with that, but I feel things are getting better. I'm also a little lost in what I should be teaching. With no requirements and nothing I need to get through, I'm finding it a little difficult to do things that wouldn't be just a waste of time. I think we'll do a play, doing poetry now, I'd like to do some creative writing with them. But I just feel like everything is a waste of time, I'm struggling really focusing on what to do teach. I'm running out of ideas. Especially after Spring Break. He wants it to be fun, well, fun is great, and I can do fun things. But where do we draw the line between fun and learning. I dont know, it's just hard without a specific end in mind. I had that before, I had the Problem/Solution paper, now I just dont feel like I have that. I dont know, just me complaining. It's all good. We'll do some cool stuff. Maybe we can read Life of Pi I think it'd be worth it. I think we can do book club groups. And I'd like to read The Death of a Salesman so we'll see. A lot of the work will have to be in class, but that's okay. Not what but how. I hope that I can find that How here eventually. Peace Corps is looking mighty nice. Paid, two years, chance to extend, see the world, teaching experience. Looking pretty good, unless I get a job by May I think I'm going for it. Wish me luck, and guide me.

Later all.