5/22/2011

banana bread

Banana Bread Recipe:

Prep time: 5 minutes Cook time: 1 hour

Ingredients:
3 or 4 ripe bananas, smashed
1/3 cup melted butter
1 cup sugar (can easily reduce to 3/4 cup)
1 egg, beaten
1 teaspoon vanilla
1 teaspoon baking soda
Pinch of salt
1 1/2 cups of all-purpose flour

Method
No need for a mixer for this recipe. Preheat the oven to 350°F (175°C). With a wooden spoon, mix butter into the mashed bananas in a large mixing bowl. Mix in the sugar, egg, and vanilla. Sprinkle the baking soda and salt over the mixture and mix in. Add the flour last, mix. Pour mixture into a buttered 4x8 inch loaf pan. Bake for 1 hour. Cool on a rack. Remove from pan and slice to serve.

Found on SimplyRecipies.com and it has worked great for me.

Can also add nuts or chocolate chips

5/11/2011

Infatuation and lust are the words for today. That, and lazy and stupid. Lets start with one set.

First, I'm once again lost for a girl that I can never have. I think about her constantly and want to be with her constantly, but I can't. It can never be and it crushes me. I'm so lonely, I'm so lonely, and I can't seem to find any relief. I don't know what to do. I'm ready to break down into tears about this. I can't do this any more. I can't just stay here and be completely lonely. Something needs to change, and I pray that it is soon. Please help me find something.

Second, the kids are all so damn lazy and stupid. I can't believe this any more. I'm incredibly frustrated with all of them, but I don't know what to do. How can I feel this way? I'm frustrated with the powers that be, I'm frustrated with drama for next year, I just don't know what to do. Hopefully some distance will give me some perspective. But I don't think I'll last more than one more year. They anger me constantly. I can't chew butt, I can't motivate them, they don't want my help and they wont be successful in the future. These are the kids that need me the most, but these kids won't let me help them. I don't know what to do.

I'm thinking about getting out of teaching.
I need someone in my life.
I'm so lonely.

Need perspective.
Need compassion.
Need rest.

later.

5/09/2011

You need to be honest w/yourself & accept regardless of how much it hurts, it's not going to be. Acceptance is one hard thing to conqure. But we need to have the strength to accept the things we cannot change, courage to change the things we can, & the wisdom to know the difference. You know the truth, now the biggest thing is accepting that fact. The only thing you can do is your best to put it in your past. Know you have to move on, move forward. You need to start a new beginning. Go to different places, try to do different things. Stay away from things that are going to trigger memories that are going to do nothing but hurt you. Try to make up your mind you're going to start a new life. You honestly do not know who is out there who just might come along & change your life in a way you never tho't possible. Try to think positive & do everything in your power to make a new life for yourself. Maybe a friend can be of help to you. Work on it, try as hard as you can. You don't know where your life is going to take you. You don't know who you just might meet. Give yourself a chance with an open mind. I truly wish you the best.