Not much going on. Getting ready to meet the match-up on Friday, hopefully I can show him some pretty cool stuff. Had today off, tomorrow too, but I'm going to do some work tomorrow, get to a computer lab, print some stuff. Went up to Five Guys today. If I havent mentioned it, best burger I've had in a long time. Greasy, slimy, dripping with ketchup, mustard, and cheese. Heart-clogging goodness. Went to a meeting of education people yesterday, after I had a meeting with Pam. Pam, GREATEST TEACHER EVER. I just needed someone to listen for a little while, she gave me some resources and just let me talk for a little while. The meeting instantly had me in a bad mood. I had to see her again. Saw her today too, driving in her car. Why does it hurt so much. I'm broken. There's no reason it should make me feel so bad, I've lost people before, been rejected before, why does it just always hurt when I think about her. I'm broken.

Something cool happened though. I was getting ready to write my paper, when I opened the document and saw that I had already written it. That was awesome. It's not great, but it's usable.

If I could go back in time, how would I do college different? That's the question in my mind lately. Hung out with Kim and the gang. I dont belong there, not part of a church, they dont want me there. Where do I belong? Damn, sometimes it's just not fair. I'm broken. Going home is a mixed blessing. Free Room and Board, Love my parents, but I'm a prisoner there. I become the worse version of me. I stay inside, happy on a friday night to be with them, no chance of meeting people on the couch. I eat too much, gonna gain a ton of weight unless I can find the weight room at my school. Mixed blessing. I wont be alone any more, but I'll be just as lonely. I'm broken.

I've always landed on my feet, and the people that hurt me always get theirs. Bobby ditched me for Steve. He's a bum now. I lost him, I became a college graduate. Lost RD, Brandon, Garret, Jeff, Andrew, DJ, Michael, Ranger, Chris, Josh, Scott, Bobby, Forest, Shaun, Bradley, Katie, Dawn, Brittany, Amy, Kendra, Kasey, Lisa and countless others I cant even remember. What's one more name added to the ever growing list. Yet, here I am. A success I guess. What did I do to deserve this ever growing list of names? How did I lose them? Why did I lose them? What did I do? I just dont get it. I'm broken.

Later all.